As I sat down in prayer this afternoon I told God – this is a Good Place to Be… aka. This season of life.
When I was a teenager I never wanted children (no seriously, I didn’t), fast forward twenty something years later and I have three. I wouldn’t change anything. In fact, I can’t imagine my life without kids, especially my kids. When I was younger I would stress over my house being unclean, the floors not being swifted, washed, and “waxed” to perfection. The younger me fretted over many things that the me now just doesn’t care about. I am too keenly aware that one day (and all too soon as I have teenagers) my house will be silent and I will miss the mayhem my kids bring. I will miss the madness that early life produces while you are just trying to figure it all out, even though I am now in “mid-life”.
I can tell you that despite my efforts (not my best efforts but effort) to keep my floors cleaned and dishes put away it seldom stays that way… and jimmy crack corn… I just don’t care anymore… There are never enough towels clean, despite the best efforts, socks still go missing somehow, and wash clothes are scarce. Walking into my son’s room is like walking into another dimension of untidiness, twight light zone of dirt and grime… jimmy crack corn… I just don’t care anymore.
And I am constantly going to the store forgetting to get what I went there for, leaving with stuff not on my list, not in my budget, only to go back to retrieve what I needed in the first place while still managing to purchase items not of my list and still out of budget. Target is addictive… Am I the only one?
All casualness aside though we do clean for company- keeping up a good appearance is all we can manage, don’t judge, you can relate too (it’s really about just being presentable). Lately, I find myself up to my eye balls in homework, spelling words, division, college books to be bought for the boy, music lessons, dogs that poop in their crate, stray cats that adopt us, senior dogs that keep me up half the night; all the wonderful delicious ingredients that make the soup I call life (my life) and it’s a good place to be!
It’s taken me a long time to get to this point, that is the realization that I like the noise of life with kids, chaos, animals, messes, in fact I love it. Hold tight to the ones you love because people come and go out of this life and seasons change all to quickly.
Find happiness in your madness… 😉
PS. “I am in the process of becoming the best version of myself.” Wild Women Quote